Monday, February 21, 2011
How's your self worth?
I struggled this weekend, again, and it forced me to take inventory this morning. I am continually amazed at how my weight gain or loss is directly effected by my self worth. With everything that’s been going on in our little world I have seen a slow digression in the self worth category. I’m not sure how this changed. I was so focused. For the first time in my life, I saw myself as worth it. I saw myself as someone who could do anything I set my mind to. But life was good. Things were looking up. Why is it that a circumstance can dictate what I think of myself? What’s going on around me shouldn’t change whether or not I think I’m worth this effort. What’s going on around me should make me more determined to succeed. These circumstances are not WHO I am. WHO I am is an amazing person, friend, wife, mother, daughter, aunt, sister, etc. I have been given a life that is worth living to its fullest. I am a child of God. I was created for a purpose. I have so much to live for. . . not just exist for. Are you living or existing?
I’m not writing this to solicit praise. I’m wondering if this is what so many people with addictions and weight problems go through. If you have a weight problem. . . do you see yourself as worth the effort to change? Do you see yourself as someone who deserves the best? Are you experiencing the best? For most of my life I have not thought of myself as worth it. I haven’t thought that I deserved much of anything. Through this weight loss journey my perspective is changing. I have moments. This past weekend was one of them. In fact this past 3 months has been very difficult in this area. I have let my circumstances decide my self worth. I need to stay aware. I need to stay present and in the moment. This way I can tell myself that I am worth the effort. I deserve the best. I deserve happiness and you know what. . . so do YOU!!!