Monday, February 21, 2011

How's your self worth?

How’s your self worth? Have you taken inventory lately?

I struggled this weekend, again, and it forced me to take inventory this morning.  I am continually amazed at how my weight gain or loss is directly effected by my self worth. With everything that’s been going on in our little world I have seen a slow digression in the self worth category. I’m not sure how this changed. I was so focused. For the first time in my life, I saw myself as worth it. I saw myself as someone who could do anything I set my mind to. But life was good. Things were looking up. Why is it that a circumstance can dictate what I think of myself? What’s going on around me shouldn’t change whether or not I think I’m worth this effort. What’s going on around me should make me more determined to succeed. These circumstances are not WHO I am. WHO I am is an amazing person, friend, wife, mother, daughter, aunt, sister, etc. I have been given a life that is worth living to its fullest. I am a child of God. I was created for a purpose. I have so much to live for. . . not just exist for. Are you living or existing?

I’m not writing this to solicit praise. I’m wondering if this is what so many people with addictions and weight problems go through. If you have a weight problem. . . do you see yourself as worth the effort to change? Do you see yourself as someone who deserves the best? Are you experiencing the best? For most of my life I have not thought of myself as worth it. I haven’t thought that I deserved much of anything. Through this weight loss journey my perspective is changing. I have moments. This past weekend was one of them. In fact this past 3 months has been very difficult in this area. I have let my circumstances decide my self worth. I need to stay aware. I need to stay present and in the moment. This way I can tell myself that I am worth the effort. I deserve the best. I deserve happiness and you know what. . . so do YOU!!!


Sara Jean said...

At the begining of last year i clearly heard the Lord say that it was my year to get healthy. At that moment i knew it was true! Even though i only lost 30lbs and still have another 40 to go, i don't feel the pressure anymore. I'm not who i used to be and i never will be again. I've hit a couple of hickups (injury) along the way, still nursing the knee but it doesn't change the fact that i can be healthy, i choose to eat what is better for me, of course i have chocolate and yummy's but not near the amount i used to. So i would say for me hearing from the Lord was my turn around and since i know i heard from Him i choose to believe/lean on that, even when i don't feel healthy. That's my story:) I love your blog Sandy it's very encouraging and has great ideas!!!!

Unknown said...

Thank you Sara. I love to hear other's stories. I'm so encouraged by your journey. You look amazing, but it's not just that you lost weight. There's a happiness in your eyes that wasn't there before. There's a glow. Keep it up. We deserve to feel good and to be healthy!