Sunday, November 27, 2011


A few weeks ago I had someone tell me I need to start being kind to myself. I was not sure what she meant, but it intrigued me. I continued to listen as she explained further. Since I am a processor, I have been thinking about this ever since. My conclusion is, I am kind to myself in many ways, but in many ways, I am not. One of the most important ways is forgiveness. I have been kind to myself taking the 120 lbs off. I have been kind to myself by eating healthier and exercising. I have not forgiven myself for my past. I have been struggling with what I did to myself, by putting on so much weight, through my late teens, twenties, and half of my thirties. I feel like they were wasted in self-hatred and pity parties. I have been living in the past and not looking forward to the future and all it has to offer.

As I walk through my days now I ask myself if I’m being kind to myself when certain thoughts come forward, with the foods I put in my mouth, with how much sleep I’m giving myself, in allowing myself some downtime, etc. I encourage you to analyze how you are treating yourself. Are you being KIND to yourself?

Friday, November 18, 2011

Weigh Day!!

I know, it's a day early but I'm leaving for CA today so I had to. I didn't drop any weight this week. I worked my butt off and do feel quite a bit smaller. I can tell in my clothes I lost inches. I did drop 10 lbs last week so this week's lack of loss should not be a shocker. I'll keep doing what I'm doing and I should see results next week. Now, next week is Thanksgiving so I'll probably weigh on Thanksgiving morning. I'm not planning on binging but I am planning on having a "free day". 

It's snowing and icy here so if you live in my neck of the woods, please be safe when you're out on the roads and stay warm. Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Sweet Pumpkin Whip

Photo by: Ryan Benyi
Whip up this tasty dessert for an easy and wholesome fall treat.  I topped it with whipped topping and crushed ginger snap cookies. Mmm Mmm good!


1 (3.4-oz) package instant sugar-free, fat-free cheesecake-flavor pudding
1 cup fat-free milk
½ 15-oz can solid pumpkin (not pumpkin pie filling)
1 tsp ground cinnamon
¼ tsp ground nutmeg
½ 8-oz container sugar-free whipped topping

At a glance:

Servings: 6   Active Time: 15 min   Total Time: 15 min


1. Combine pudding mix and milk in a medium bowl; whisk until well blended. Stir in pumpkin, cinnamon, and nutmeg. Add whipped topping and mix thoroughly.

2. Serve immediately or cover with plastic wrap and refrigerate up to two days


 Serves: 6 | Per serving: 180 calories, 37g carbs, 2g protein, 30g fat, 0mg cholesterol, 190mg sodium, 2g fiber

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Sunday, November 13, 2011

Weigh Day!!

Yesterday I weighed in at 189 lbs. I'm down 10 lbs from last Saturday. Only 5 more to go to be back to where I was. Exercising this week has been so much fun. Variety is definitely the key. I'm learning what I like and what I don't like. The spin classes go by so quickly. The kickboxing class made me the most sore. The cardio with strength training was the most fun. I'm so glad I have the opportunity to try all of these different classes out. If you can find different things to do it keeps it exciting and fun.

I have some new thoughts rolling around in my head. I'm hoping to have time to share them with you this week. Stay tuned . . .

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Weigh Day!!

I wasn't going to report this week's weigh in, but after a lot of back and forth I decided I need to. I need to stay accountable to the process I have chosen. I no longer live in condemnation and shame. So, here goes. . . This week I weighed in at 199 lbs. I know, you're mouth has dropped wide open. I can guarantee that I didn't put on that much fat. I worked out all week and made good choices most the week. However, I didn't make good choices on Thursday or Friday and I didn't drink much water last week. My body is so weird. I retain water like nobody I've ever seen. My clothes still fit so I know I'm okay.

This week's focus will be writing everything I eat down, even if it's not what I'm suppose to eat, drinking a gallon of water a day, I have a lot of water weight to lose, and to burn 1000 calories per day working out. This is quite a challenge but I'm going to do it.

FOCUS is the word of the week.