Melancholy

I needed to see this today.

For those of you who know me well, you know I can be very melancholy at times. The world can seem too much some days. Over the past few days, I have been very melancholy. Part of it is self-doubt regarding my weight loss and part of it is just where we are in life right now. I am really struggling with believing I can finish my weight loss and reach my goal. On one hand, I am tired of fighting and working so dang hard and on the other hand, I want to reach my goal so badly. Why after so much success do I still doubt myself? Why does doubt even dare to show itself after the success I have seen? Why do I doubt my strength and my abilities? Why do I fail to see what I am capable of? I have no idea. I am searching for answers because I believe this self-doubt is exactly what is keeping me from reaching my goal. One day I am on top of the world and the next day I am convinced I just cannot do it. Why? Do not hear me wrong. I am not quitting. I am just trying to figure out why this doubt creeps up and how I can combat it so it does not sabotage my efforts.